craps and more craps

am i not being fair to my self or to them.well for this week every single day i fought with afifa just because of some stupid silly things and it will always end up she ask for an end to our relationship but at the end she just cant do it and i don't even know why. i cnt say that i dnt love her i do but our relationship graph is going downwards.i said to her today make sure that u try to revive our relationship this weekend.and yeah she didn't fint put that at the same time i have a crush on someone else.if she know it only god knows what going to happen next.ive been keep it a secret from hanum that i ve a crush on her,but i nearly get busted today.thanx to aidi ngeh..ee nasib baik dia blur gak kalau tak mmg ar kau ngee.i think technically i lied to afifa about how much i love her and when she ask that is she the only one i said yes.haih jahatnya aku ni.im seriously blank now and i dont know what to do.i hope afifa has fine a way to spice up our relationship insyallah at the same time i do hope that how do hanum think about me andd in the same time also i dont want her to know that ive a crush on her bahay ngee.im being so restless now i dont know why.ive decided to perform solat hajat just know and hopefully almighty allah s.w.t will help me insyallah.mid term exam is near and i havent started study yet.eh tak tak i ve studied a lil bit dah only chapter 1 XD.maybe on friday i'll start study hehe.i cant sleep write i watch the animes that ive downloaded last night and know im writting a blog here with my crappy english.forgive me for the grammatical error i'll try to improve before muet comes hehe.thats all for now.thanx for reading this crappy post.assalamualaikum.