:(

i love u like serious shit why do i love u.why u why u why!

something

ive confess

and she drew a line

it's better to gap my self from her

because im afraid of loosing her

its better for me to be a friend to her

than being nothing in her life

-ariff-

forgiveness is aint that easy

a friend that i mention yesterday text me early in the morning and ask me for a forgiveness.haih bukan sng nak forgive but in islam ckp kalau kita tak maafkan org tu dlm certain period kita yg berdosa..even though u have blurt everything out.it is still hard for me.so i need some gap i need some time.

things that shouldnt happen

never thought things will get this complicated.im not saying ive mess up my own life but ya i dont know how to express it here. as u can see in my previous post. there's a girl whom caught my heart but ive actually know that she just think of me as a friend. and this very day she knew that i like her and she did say she only want to be friends with me.im ok with it seriously. but the question now is.why must she distance her self from me.she said that she felt guilty making me fall for her. it's not her fault that i fell for her it's totally mine. do i have to say to her like "hey i promise i wont fall for u anymore let's be friend?" but the big question is DO U HAVE TO DISTANCE YOURSELF FROM ME? do u know how obvious it is?do u think ignoring me would make me feel better? one problem is enough.here comes another one.someone whom i really thought as my close friend is bringing me down as in BRINGING ME DOWN.as he have a crush on the same girl ive been hitting.so he's bringing me down in a not a good way..things is being hard on me today.nasib baik aku ada blog ni haih.skrg semuanya berserah kepada allah.allah maha esa.dia maha adil so yeah.i'll just end my post like this.assalamualaikum

i usually write this on twitter but since she have a twitter i cant write it there.today was the day where i realise how much i actually love her and its frustrating.i dont even now does she even cares about me.it's so hard breaking when she talks about "the other guy" although she always says that she wont fall for him but i think she already fall for him. she might not know how much i actually do really care about her.but as i always say to my self "jodoh di tangan allah". it has always been so frustrating to not knowing how she felt about me.oh allah if she is my, my destiny pls bring us together closer, if she's not pls put my heart far far away from her.amin

-ariff-